lately I have been struggling a little bit, and not being good at getting my head around stuff. the last few weeks, months even, have been frantic. There is now denying that. I have been pulled in all direction by many people who need me, and finally have a little bit of breathing space, and am feeling lost again. Life is returning to something resembling normal, and I cant seem to move on completly from the place we were in before. I still go to ask Peter if he has his back-up, mobile etc. And I still worry about leaving him alone in the house. This transistion from carer-of-husband-in-need-of-a-new-heart to normal wife is very very hard.
Also, Nicole has become very anxious and weepy lately. She is scared she will die, that Peter will die, that i will die. She has been asking about how parts of the body work and whats happens if they stop working. She is so scared, and has cried a lot over the last week.
I just want to weep with her, as a seven year old shouldn't be feeling like this. She shouldn't have had to deal with this at all. I know we have had a happy ending, but there was so much stress into getting to this place.
Last week, I started a sponsered slim. The link is in the post below. I am aiming on losing 4stone in 12months, but hoping to beat that. Today was my first weigh in, and I have lost 4lb.