Monday, October 22, 2007


Tomorrow, channel 5 are descending on us. at 9am.

that is far too early considering it half term.

so i am setting the alarms early and getting the children off to my mums.

so best be off to bed now.

think they are aiming for the lunchtime news.

maybe evening as well.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Breathe in, hold it, breathe out and relax.

Well, things with peter are going really well. low grade rejection, thats about it.

However, my younger sister (the one who had the baby girl), has gall stones. She has been in and out of hospital all week, in immense pain. She has been on anti biotics as her gall bladder is inflammed with some infection there. The plan was to remove her gall bladder once things has settled down a bit. She has multiple stones. However. At least one stone has moved and blocked a duct in her liver. She has turned yellow, ir peeing bright orange wee. So has been readmitted tonight, for observation. The hospital are hoping the stone dislodges itself overnight, otherwise tomorrow she is facing surgery tro go in and remove the stone.

Poor sister.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

See that new little widgety thing down the side bar there>>>

Well ,that is keeping me very motivated now. There is no need to worry that any amount is too small, every penny helps.

I have now lost 6lbs. i had a bit of an all-out-week last week, involving film previews, and 3 meals out. oops. I also killed me back on thursday last week, and couldnt exercise. But still lost 2lb.

Yesterday, my new fancy bike trailer arrived. Its for Serena to ride in on the way to school. Nicole and Lauren pelt down the school on their scooters, and I'm usually about 100m behind them yelling 'slow down!' Today I kept up all the way, and managed to cycle all the way back up a very small slope. with no pushing allowed. My thighs hurt already, its been so so long since I've riden a bike, but it was great fun and very invigorating. Serena loved the trailer, but wasnt so keen on her cycle helmet. I hadnt been able to find one for me, as i have a big head (oi, no laughing lol), but managed to get one today in tesco. Finally. so this afternoon I will be fully kitted up to do it all over again.

Hopefully will get my half-stone on wednesday next week.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Why am i struggling to update?

lately I have been struggling a little bit, and not being good at getting my head around stuff. the last few weeks, months even, have been frantic. There is now denying that. I have been pulled in all direction by many people who need me, and finally have a little bit of breathing space, and am feeling lost again. Life is returning to something resembling normal, and I cant seem to move on completly from the place we were in before. I still go to ask Peter if he has his back-up, mobile etc. And I still worry about leaving him alone in the house. This transistion from carer-of-husband-in-need-of-a-new-heart to normal wife is very very hard.

Also, Nicole has become very anxious and weepy lately. She is scared she will die, that Peter will die, that i will die. She has been asking about how parts of the body work and whats happens if they stop working. She is so scared, and has cried a lot over the last week.

I just want to weep with her, as a seven year old shouldn't be feeling like this. She shouldn't have had to deal with this at all. I know we have had a happy ending, but there was so much stress into getting to this place.

Last week, I started a sponsered slim. The link is in the post below. I am aiming on losing 4stone in 12months, but hoping to beat that. Today was my first weigh in, and I have lost 4lb.