I think I have barely slept since this all happened. Have been at Harefield every morning. Ideally I would be staying relatives accomadation and be on site all the time, but feel I should be here in the mornings when the girls wake up and here to put them to bed, and try and keep them settled, afterall this is going to be a massive MASSIVE change for them as well when Daddy comes home. So am shooting up and down the M25 everyday for now, gives me a chance to sob a bit in wonder in the car whilst stuck in traffic, and also blare some good feel good tunes out. So if you see a scatty looking woman stuck on the m25 between watford and waltham cross, thats me lol.
Peter is doing, dare i say, amazingly well. His has pinked up really well, today his ears were pinker than yesterday and its like there is a glow beneath his skin. He feels warmer, and looks so good. I was watching his chest earlier in amazment, just seeing it move with each heartbeat, no mechanicial jolt which had been there for over two years. I had to feel his pulse, as he has had a false pulse for so long, and ooh it felt so so good. My superman is alive and well, and it feels wonderful. The balloon pump in his leg is gone now, and he had requested some food, an ommelette, yoghurt and build up shake. His mum says he couldnt manage the ommlette so had some chicken soup instead.
He has started to take his medication orally, is having a few troubles with some pills, particially his anti-rejection (MMF) pills as they are pretty BIG pills, so managed to take it in liquid form, any way it goes in is all good so not worried about liquid/pill meds realy.
He was pretty tired when i was there, so i left a little bit earlier than planned as he was falling asleep, and he needs his zzzz to get stronger, so left him with a kiss and a bye and 'see you tomorrow'
i will probably update later again over the weekend as there is so much emotion surrounding all this and i need to get it out somehow, and i have found writing this blog over the last 2 years so healing in some ways. its nice having somewhere i can put this all down and not have a notebook lying around waiting for one of the children to claim as theirs and scribble in lol.