Thursday, June 29, 2006

I have just cried my eyes out.

I havent cried so much at a TV programme in ages. I justwatched 'who gets the heart' on channel four. seeing Peter Field, it bought back some very strong memories and emotions. I have gotton so used to waiting now, trying to remember life before LVAD is hard. I cant remember what its like going out with no worries and no cares. I have to carry my mobile at all times, i worry if i do go out and lose signal, I paniced this morniung when the phone rang at 6.30am, turned out serena had hit redail and was chatting to peter on the phone. better than dialing 999 like she did last week.

just want a 'normal' life again, to be a family again, to be able to carefree-ish again.

when will that call come?


Thursday, June 22, 2006

I have lost my glasses.

I have spent the last 2 days looking for them. they have disappeared. So tomorrow, when i was meant to be driving to harefield, i am going to be going to town to order new glasses, again. bah bah bah. i am going to need those straps that go round my neck to keep hold of them arent i?

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

This is basically a log of Peters 1st call and the emotions i was feeling

I was at home with the kids. this links to a site i use and the nights events unfold on there.

i just read through it myself and sobbed :(

This is a on-going art project that is being done at the harefield transplant unit. Some of the pictures are really moving, the sound isnt working atm unless you are using a MAC apparently, but should be done soon.